Friday, August 13, 2010


Had a great day yesterday, did not cheat!!! I lost 2 pounds just from sticking with the diet. Just goes to show me that if i follow the guidance given it I will succeed. You can get advice about things all day long but if you don't pick something and go with it whole heartily it will never be successful...

Here is an updated pic of KK...

Thursday, August 12, 2010


Such a dirty word but, I am on a diet. A life change really. It is time or me to take control. Self control, there's a phrase for you. The bible says it in a ton of ways that we need to be Self Controlled and that self control is a fruit of the spirit. I know God has given me the ability to do this but man it is hard.

Currently I am down about 23 pounds, my goal is to lose 105 in total. A lot I know but that is where my self control has been, non existent.

Lately I have been cheating like crazy. Any carb I see I want to eat, This is a calorie restrictive diet but I can have starches and fats just in a moderate way. I, in truth, am not being deprived in any way. So, why can I just gain some self control here.

Galatians 5:16-26

16So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. 17For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want. 18But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under law.

19The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; 20idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions 21and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. 24Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. 25Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. 26Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.

Is what I keep thinking of, I want to mimic this scripture but I feel like I am in such a hole right now. I feel like God is yelling at me to change every area of my life all at once and I am stuck. I think Satan is beating me down and trying to take control of who I am completely.

I know that losing weight is just the start of a larger change in character for me. If I want to keep the weight off, the lessons I learn now are essential especially if I want to pass them on to Kaitlyn.

I want to be a good daughter to God, a good wife, mother and friend.

God Is good and will not forsake me. I know a lot of what I am going through is emotional and can and will be delt with. So hear I am venting trying to get out all of my emotions and not let them control me.