So here I am 4 days "past due" I have been quite a bit frustrated because there is no escape from all the questions and comments and people even flat out laughing at me for still being pregnant. I had a Dr. appt. yesterday which was hopeful. 1 cm dilated, 50% effaced, and -2 Station. If you don' t know what all that means it means that she is truly starting her decent and getting ready to come out. YEAH! It may be several days yet but that is OK. I know she is on her way. This has been a good time to pray for surrender and patience. I know these are lessons I need to learn so why not now. Mike and Elecia have been sooo helpful and encouraging as well as the H.A.N.D. group I am in (home-birth association of north dallas) they are all very insightful and great for a vent.
So, we are headed into the home strech and very excited. I do think I am now more excited than nervous. I want to do well and know I can with God's help. Mike is ready to be my fab coach and my sister is our backup. My sister in law is ready for pictures and my family is on standby. We are sooo blessed and could not ask for more.
I have been a little more than cranky but am trying to hold that at bay I know it is all apart of the hormone surge I just hate it when my DH gets the brunt of it all.
I am having a few cramps here and there but nothing productive yet, still brackston hicks I think. We are going to the State Fair tomorrow so we will see what happens. It will be fun to have a really good outing together before she comes no matter what! My DH is my best friend, I am so grateful for him. He is always positive when I need him to be and loves me through my uglyness. I am blessed to be having his child and could not imagine anyone else being her father. I never knew just how much love I could hold in my heart until I met him and now having his child.
God new what he was doing putting us together. He always knows best. Mike and I learn a lot from one another and just want to be together. I love that Rascal Flats song "bless the broken road" I always think of Mike when I hear this.
My fab sister in law took us out to get preg pics on Saturday (being due the very next weekend I figured I wasn't going to get much bigger). I think they turned out Fabulous. Then on Sunday my family gave me a shower that was Amazing!!! Absolutely every person that was their wether blood related or not was family which made it extra special. My Aunt made us a beautiful pink blanket and my mom made a gorgeous going home outfit for Kaitlyn. It is beyond compare.
Mike and I are very humbled by this experience. We have been blessed with 4 showers, the generosity of others to help us give the best to our little one is inspiring. We have already been talking about how we can "pay if forward" so to speak and we are very determined to do so. I am grateful God not only teaches in the hard times but uses these times of great blessing to move our hearts for others.
There is just no time left. We still have so much to do! Put up the Chair rail in the nursery, paint the nursery finish our guest room for visitors, put the crib together put all the furniture in the nursery, Can I pull my hair out!!! I just feel like I am crazy nesting right now and can not get anything done at the moment. Breathe! I know it will get done, all you really need are diapers and love right!!!
This weekend we have my nephew Austin's 1st Birthday. It is going to be an amazing day. He has had an unusual first year but he is a beautiful, walking, happy, afraid of nothing, perfect, little boy!!!! When my first nephew Ryan was born I never knew that I could love a child so intensely, it is amazing to me to see how much more full my heart is with two nephews and now a daughter on the way. With so many more children in our future (between my brother and sister in law planning a family, the two nephews on my Sisters side, 2 nephews and a baby on the way from my DH's sister and our baby coming) our lives are so full of blessings!!!!! Woah, I've never seen it all written out like that. Life keeps going doesn't it!!!
I have learned a lot over the last 7 months and I know I will keep learning more. God has been showing me my heart lately and just how much I think about myself over the other people in my life. I am working hard to change it but it is hard to change your character. Mike and I were able to serve an old friend last night who had a sever accident and almost lost his life. We were able to take them dinner and spend a couple of hours with them just enjoying their company. I have been able to have some great conversations with both family and friends lending an ear. It is amazing how it fills you up when you put yourself out there to help others. I think I am getting a lot more than I am giving.
Well, I am such a random blogger. I guess that is what it is for though, to get your thoughts out.
So I am now 28 weeks pregnant and thrilled. Mike and I are so very excited to have our Kaitlyn coming but it is a scary thing to know that you have this little life in your hands. In soooo many ways we are thinking about her first now, making sacrifices financially and in time to get things ready and put her best interests at heart. We know that God is watching over us and he knows what we need to be great parents. I never knew we could love someone so much!!
I am fearful about the birth. I keep having these thoughts about "what if I can not handle it?" Mike is so awesome, he reminds me that we are taking the Bradley classes for a reason. We are both going to learn sooo much and be able to get throughout this beautiful and scary time.
It is amazing to me just how critical some people can be at the decisions you make and then in the next turn you find someone who is very positive and supportive. I wish there were more like that around. We seriously do not need people telling us all the things that could go wrong either in birth or in our parenting. We need positive supportive people. We are lucky though the mix of people has been decently lopsided toward the positive.
Well, into the 3rd trimester we go. Mike is looking for a new job and has some positive leads. The one most important thing I think must change right now in our lives is our devotion to God. We have definitely become lax, but God always appreciates change!!!
We are now at 21 weeks alongg. it is Sooo Exciting. It's a Girl! Can you believe it. The first Girl in either Mike's or my Family since the grandchildren started coming. She will be Kaitlyn. Everything seems to be so much more real now. Every day we get closer to her being here I am more and more amazed. A little fearful of the birth but Amazed. We are starting the Bradley Birthing Classes in August. I can't wait. We both really want a plan and a better understanding of what to expect when our Kaiti is born. Here are some picts...
This is our 10 week Sono. No More Sonograms until week 20 or 22 to find out Boy or Girl?
Mike is such a proud pappa!
I am sooo excited to be 12 weeks along After bleeding early on and being scared to death of the big MC this is a big accomplishment as it would be for anyone. God has blessed us with allowing me to carry this child. Sometimes when I am sick it can be hard to be greatful I just have to remember this little munchkin and the fact that God is seeing it fit to allow us to have a child. WOW.
Thanks for all your support early on. I know it can be hard to know what to say when someone is facing a hard realty (even if it turns out ok) Knowing there are people praying and thinking about you makes a big difference.
My 7month old Nephew Austin is having surgery Tomorrow morning. He was born with a Tethered spine and now they have to go in and fix it all so it will not damage his spinal cord and brain as he grows. Scary but I know God is on his side. Lots of pryayers going up!!!
We are starting this blog thing now. I think it is great because we can keep everyone up to date all the time... A little about us, My husband Mike and I have been married for 3 years and 9 months. We just moved into our first house and LUV IT!! It is so liberating being away from the apartment scene. God has definitely blessed us. Mike Graduated from College with his Bachelor degree in CISM. YEAH. He started school 3 months after we got Married now we get to make up for lost time :)
We hope to have children soon and go to Europe and visit London where he was stationed for 3 years. We figured that whichever comes first the kids or the trip, Children are portable.